Tired

We are proceeding under the assumption that my dad has non-small cell lung cancer. He is a candidate for Tarceva and has been taking it for 5 days. Tarceva is a clinical trial, daily chemo drug that specifically targets non-small cell lung cancer. If he responds, he could likely live another 1-3 years. If you have been keeping track, this is considerably better than the 2-5 months we are currently facing.

The drug is $150 a day and is not covered by Group Health. We are brought up to believe that life is priceless, but my Dad's insurance thinks it should cost about $55,000 a year. We are working to see if the drug company will pay for the pill. Fingers crossed.

My Dad is tired. He is tired of answering questions. He is tired of filling out forms. He is tired of keeping track of all the different pills he must take to feel "normal". He is most tired when he loses track and can actually feel the cancer. He is tired of waiting to see if the latest diagnosis is accurate. He is tired from the chemo drug. He is tired from the steroids he has to take for energy, but give him insomnia. He is tired of being terminal. He is tired of being jerked around within a system that holds the key to his life. He is tired. He is tired and I can't fix it for him.